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Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Message for my best friend and for the Poltical Science Society…

Message for my best friend and for the Poltical Science Society… PICC HERE WE COME Wow… few days to go… graduate na tayo!!! After all the trials and sufferings.. eto na nasa kamay na natin ang success… (may ganun?heheh) I would like to thank people who touched my life during my stay here in FEU. My PSO241 family are the people I will never forget. Salamat sa lahat… Yes..tanggap ko na ang katototohanang dis would be the last smiles, laughters, tears and happy moments. Nataggap ko na that life must go on and we should all move on. Ayoko na munang isipin pa because kung iisipin ko pa ay mas masasaktan ako gravely… masakit man na magkakahiwalay na tayo especially those people na talagang naging importante sa akin… pero kailangan kong lampasan ang emotions ko… It is the end of our college year but this is the start of a new journey of our lives… I will miss you people especially my best friend paul… Napakaraming memories ang iniwan ng friendship na ito with paul and of course with jen also… kaya nga para di ako masaktan pang lalo, I stay away from him and jen… kasi mas masasaktan lang ako at maaalala ng maaalala ang mga nagyari before. Maaalala ko ulit yung day na nag start ang friendship namin… ung swimming, ung naging sila ni jen, sa jollibee, kfc, mall of asia at ang HAPPY FEET… though we do not talk often in school I’m still glad na siya ang tinuring kong best friend… Paul, I want to thank you, and I want the world to know how much I am glad and blessed to have you both in my life. So yun, I want everybody to know how lucky am I na nakilala ko ang best friend ko. I hope na dalhin mo lagi ang Jeepney Key Chain na binigay ko… tsaka please keep the cd I gave to you… Paul and Jen… HUWAG KAYONG MAG HIHIWALAY DAHIL GAGAWA AT GAGAWA AKO NG PARAAN PARA KAYO PA RIN UNTIL THE END… I know na mahal ninyo ang isa’t ‘isa. Tsaka ninong ako! Hehehe… To the Political Science Society… Thank you sa magandang pagsasama natin! Salamat sa tulong at pagsunod sa akin… I’m very honored in working with you guyz, even if medyo nagkaroon ng mga problems, internally at emotionally, heheh.. eh na surpassed natin lahat I would like to congratulate Czar, my friend! Our president… thanks for leading the society! Hindi mo siya pinabayaan… you are the best.. kahit na IAS closed its door last time eh may bagong door na nag-open and that is the PSS! Czar, Rommell, Ryan, Gem, Cathlyn, Arthur, Shiena, Princess, Noriel, Jun, Jerome, Zilpah, Erick and Melody.. salamat sa lahat.. Don’t worry next batch of officers.. im still here to help… promise ko dib a yan… na I will not leave FEU and the society.. so kita kits next semester! Tutparin ko yan… naks! Erick at Gem… good luck! Salamat nga pala sa PLAQUE OF APPRECIATION na binigay ninyo sa akin… pinaiyak ninyo ko dun ah! Hehehe Salamat di sa POLTICAL SCIENCE DEPARTMENT kasi they included me in the list sa TOP TEN MOST OUTSTANDING POLITICAL SCIENCE STUDENTS OF THE YEAR! Salamat… Sir Agnes at Mam Gemzon.. salamat sa inspiring words! Sa lahat ng friends ko…salamat! Congratulations PS0241

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

SALAMAT NAMAN AT UMALIS KA NA! 2006

THANK YOU 2006…. AT UMALIS KA NA!

Ei! How’s your day? Hope its fine!!!

Well, its 2007, happy new year to all!!!
I kept in silence for almost months. I chose to be in stillness to not harm other people. Its 2007 and I am trying to be good and also trying to become an almost perfect person. My 2006 is the most unforgettable year of my life in the past 19 years of existence. I am very thankful because 2006 had gone! The year 2006 is the most disastrous, catastrophic and ruinous year I passed through. But somehow thank you 2006 because you teach me how to care, love and trust other people.

People say that "life starts at 40", but in my case, "life starts at 19".
I want to break again my silence and try to remember those things happened last year – bad things and good things!

I finally have the courage to state those people and events that made my 2006 colorful, fruitful, unforgettable, memorable, unimaginable, unthinkable and meaningful.

The first six months of 2006 is the memorable one (positively)

February 2006

February is my birth month. And my story starts on that very month.
3rd – When I finally told to everyone the Mineral Water issue of Pascasio
6th – When Donald Dwight sent me a message that until now I saved it on my phone. that message is the very first message i've receive from a very extraordinary individual. Unexpected ito, ika nga!
9th – The start of my friendship with best friend Paul Marie and I am hoping that it will last forever. Another unexpected person.... sabi nga niya... expect the unexpected. Secrets? yes we have... may secrecy technique kami, heheh
13th – my birthday! I treat some of my classmates in Chowking - sarah, geraldine, junjun, angela, nadine, princess, joan and gizelle

March 2006

This month is one of the unforgettable months of 2006. It is the time when my plan for my life as a student totally changed. This is also the election day of FEUCSO and IAS. My emotion burst that time to some Political Science students. Well, some Political Science Student didn't vote for him. Ganyan talaga... and siyempre i don't have the right para utusan sila kung sino ang gusto nila... ang sa akin lang... POLSCI din po yan!
3rd – this is the time when I totally supported my classmates. I may say that I am neither happy nor sad in the said election. Do my sacrifices not enough for them to win? Or am I the reason? I pity myself. I campaigned for Czar Alexis and Danilo, but still I want to blame myself because I feel that my campaign is not sufficient for them to win. But through days had passes by, base on observation, I may say that even though Czar lost in IAS, he still continue his dream to become a student leader, he serve the POLITICAL SCIENCE SOCIETY with all his heart and capability and made the PSS the most outstanding and favorable organization in FEU (as Ma’am Fronda and OSACS has told me).
Hahaha!!! I am sorry to IAS –SC and to the entire student of IAS who didn’t vote for him because you (miss) don’t have the greatest student leader in the name of Czar !
Its your lost… its PSS gain!
This is the time also when I have a miscommunication with Raquel. I insisted some thing to her last election. And I want to say sorry for that.
31st - swimming. Yes! The most memorable event happened in my life because this is the first time when I go out with friends. I planned it (along with Princess). It is the time when Jennifer and Paul get to know with each other (as they told me). I want to grab this opportunity to thank these people who made the swimming worth remembering – Czar, Paul, Dwight, Princess, Danilo, Herbert, Cathlyn, Vann, Rommell, Jennifer and Joshua. Thank you very much!!! Thanks for the G.S.M. Blue, hahaha


April 2006

Many things occurred last April, but those things are my emotional stupidity only. This is when I sent different messages. My whole April is a texting month! 24/7 kung mag-text... hourly pa! hahaha
One intriguing date was April 6, 2006. I sent everyone a message on that particular day a inspirational one. I said "save it until April 6, 2007". But as a walk in this life of mine and wait for that very particular date in 2007. I feel something weird and premonitions. I don’t want to predict for my future because 90% of my 2005 predication came into reality (waheheh, madam auring kunwari). Something bothers me. I don’t know what will happen on 04-06-07. I wait for it! I am hoping that you still save that message!

May 2006

6th - Kuya Mark, Princess, Rommell and I went to Araneta Coliseum to watch the Grand Showdown of Pinoy Pop Superstar
23rd – when Joanalyn treat me in a movie – THE DA VINCI CODE (my second time I watched it in the big screen) at the GATEWAY Mall.

June 2006

Last week of June was a heart-pounding moment – that was the POLITICAL SCIENCE Election. Yes, I feel bad about the result and I never expect my standing. For an active incumbent, I landed 7th.
To tell everybody honestly, my greatest ambition is to become the president of any society I belong. Haay...
But in this moment, I still feel the happiness kahit na I am not the President because i told it before na I'm not into position, I'm into service. Also because I believe that there is also one person who is more capable and more knowledgeable in leading that society. It’s my good friend Czar. Yes, si Czar, who lost to IAS SC but gain more respect when he handled the POLITICAL SCIENCE SOCIETY. So, sorry sa IAS...
I have no regrets anymore, and have no reason to be sad and get mad, because I am happy serving the Political Science Society despite of the problems we’ve face – internally (double meaning yan, hahaha)
8th - Czar, Joma, Paul and I went to a seminar entitled "A purpose driven life seminar".
12th – I treat Paul and Jennifer in a concert extravaganza at the Araneta Coliseum and a food treat in Chowking.
28th – Political Science Elections and our group rehearsal in Fort Santiago
30th – I watched SUPERMAN at SM Manila with Rommell, Kuya Mark and Czar.

July 2006

It is one of the good months of 2006. More on relaxation and unwind moments.
1st – I went, along with Marella, Danilo, Czar, Sarah, Angela and Junjun, to UP Sunken Garden to practice for our video clip for Manguerra.
5th – We went back to UP. Paul, Nadine and Gizelle adds in the group
7th - The Political Science Society had an Pictorial at DREAM LIGHTS
11th – Oath Taking Ceremony
22nd – when my group mates and I went to Ninoy Aquino Parks and Wildlife
28th – first activity of POLITICAL SCIENCE SOCIETY –the leadership training seminar


August 2006

The last 5 months of 2006 is more on negative...
Eto na!!! The start of the disastrous days of my 2006 began this month. From August to November you have now the gist of why I am thankful na umalis na si 2006 sa life ko. This is the time I am into war. Andito na lahat ang galit. lahat. Lahat. Lahat. This is the time i enter in the game of love. This is the time I get hurt and this is the time that friendship came too close to the end. This is also the start of my cold relationship to the Political Science Society. This is also the time na "away-bati" ako with Czar and Rommell - Rommell and Czar. (Waheheh, silang dalawa lang). Yes, every day yan... kakasawa na nga at nakakaumay na. Ano pinag-aawayan? secret! it's always my fault kasi, hahaha.
I will reveal only those important events of August as well as those events in September, October and November.
1st – this is the 48 laws of power issue with Rommell and on the 7h day I apologized to him. I admit it is my fault. Details about it – I don’t want to repeat and keep on repeating about the details. I published it for months so it’s your lost to not know it. Sorry Rommell for the nth time
6th – I treat for a dinner my good friends Czar, Ryan, Cathlyn and Melody. This particular date is the start of my new life as an individual and started to fall into the best thing in life we call… love
19-21st – IAS Team Building. One of memorable event happened in 2006. What makes memorable? This is the time I express my feelings to the person I cherished and adore most. But the problem is, my good friend and I loved the same lady. Ciudad Christia is the unforgettable place in my life! 7th of August I decided not to join but because of the spirit of serving the studentry – I join without knowing that it may lead to many regrets of my life today. (hindi naman totally regret... slight lang... pero siyempre thankful ako, kasi nangyari ito at finally, nakilala ko kung sino ako).

September 2006

September is the continuation of my anger in August’s events. This is the time of talks… talks and a lot of talks with the people I get hurt. This is also the time I change moods and behaviors… going to worst. I will also reveal those important dates because some date should be kept secretly – it is more on emotional problems, hehehe. It is also the time I continuously get mad at the Political Science Society. As usual... galit pa rin ako...
4-6th – Political Science Society’s second activity- POLSCIKLABAN 06
6th – Paul, Jennifer and I @ KFC
12th - because of my sister’s birthday, I treat my classmates in CHOWKING (Paul, Jennifer, Rommell, Czar and Rainier)
16th – the General Assembly. No comment. All I can say is it is the best General Asembly I’ve ever attended

October 2006

October is the time I am still not at peace. I have problems with the PSS people – some of them. I told you, kasalan ko lahat ito! It is not because of projects it’s because of my personal problem with some of them. I think it is also the reconciliation month – I may say…
10th – Kitaro with Melody
14th – I, along with Melody, Rommell, Princess and Kuya Mark, went to Raquel’s house
21st – Racquel, Rommell, Kuya Mark and I went to Princess’s house
25th – Erick, Gem, Arthur and I went to SM MALL of ASIA to celebrate the birthday of Gem. We AtE at Kenny Roger’s Roaster; sing at the Powerstation and window shop!!! Hahaha

November 2006

This is the time I change SIM card. Reason? Secret! November? No changes, madness, anger and stupidity still in exist. I can’t understand why? God-damn 2006!!! Full of trials!!! This is the time I started hating close friends of mine (including my good friend). My problems evolve only in two: PS0241 and PSS. All of the problems occur is the reason why I am alone in doing the Voter’s Education processing of papers. Heart problem lang naman!
11th – the PSS officers assembled all things for the exhibit in the History celebration and also Melody and I went to Divisoria
12th – my sisters, tito, tita, cousins and I went to UP Garden for recreation and time for me to unwind
13-15th – History Week
18th – Margaret and I went to St. Francis Square for a seminar on Rebuilding the Nation
23rd – Voter’s Education. A very successful activity. OSACS extends their hands of congratulating the officers for a job well done
24th – I joined Cook Fest of IAS. I treat Jennifer and Paul in Jollibee and movie – HAPPY FEET
25th – Unwinding session at MARKET! MARKET!
29th – Gem, Erick and I went to JRU to attend the Heroes’ Symposium

December 2006

December is different. I went to back to my normal life and I prepare for New Year’s new life. I will change – in one condition – it is depend on weather the Voter’s Education will be successful or not! Because of my happiness to the success of the activity and because of the changes occurring in me in the last weeks of November, I may say that I change. Those problems of August-November – I will totally forget it for the sake of Political Science Society, friendship and the spirit of Christmas!
3rd – I went to Bataan
12th – I watched the NATIVITY Story, went to SM Megamall and Lopez Library
13th- I attended the mass of Fr. Jerry Orbos
14th- I gave gift to Czar as birthday present and also my peace offering, hehehe. And I watched CASINO ROYALE
18th- I gave gifts to my close friends as sign of my thanksgiving because they made my entire 2006 – a meaningful one!
21st – I went to Mindoro to enjoy the Yuletide season.



Hmmm… at yan ang diary ko!!! hahaha..

Now, at peace na ako... because I finally found the inner peace in me. Madali lang palang makita if you want it talaga.


Thank you very much for making my 2006 worth remembering. I want to thank this people who always understand my mood and those who don’t leave. Thank you for letting me inside your heart and for sure you are always here in mine. Regarding to the issue of emotion… I don’t want to feel it again… I’m starting my new life with God, family and friends and preparing for the coming of 04-06-07, hehehe… Thank you po!!!


Thank you for making my 2006 - a memorable one.


Before, I always say bad words, but because of the motivation of my super best friend eh...I stop saying those words. (hindi daw siya nagsasalita ng mga ganun… so nahiya naman ako sa sarili ko kaya sinunod ko si younger brother, hehehe). Now, I don’t want to get mad and think problems… tumatanda lang ako!!! Hahaha…

Thanks to Gem, Erick, Khristel and Renel! For the help.

And to Melody… thank you because once in the breath-taking life of mine… I met you at siyempre napadaan ka naman!!! I still love you … and that’s more important at alam mo iyan!!!hehehe

Thank you Melody - because you play the biggest role in my 2006. Happy ako, nakilala kita... hehehe

Ei, I am still single ha!!! Hahaha!!! Nanawagan?



These are the main actors who played important role in my 2006.


PAUL MARIE ALLANIGUE
MELODY VIRAY
CZAR ALEXIS RIMANDO
ROMMELL CONCEPCION
GEORGE MICHAEL REGINO
ERICK JAN MACAPAGAL
PRINCESS JEREMIAH SANTOS
RAQUEL BALAO-AS
KHRISTEL DEOMPOC
JENNIFER DAVID
JOANALYN BARAYUGA
DONALD DWIGHT OMEGA
ANN MARGARET ANTONIO
PASCASIO JOSHUA MARIA VICARIO III
MARK ARTHUR CATABONA
MARK SALVADOR YSLA

Thank you all!!! Mabait na po ako!!! hahahah
2007…. I hope makisama ka naman… please lang…

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

BREAKING THE SILENCE: THE UNTOLD STORY IN CIUDAD CHRISTIA

“If you love your life… don’t fall in love”

…..I now realized why some of my classmates always have sleepless nights and always shed tears (one of those is Ryan, heheh). Now, I believe – loving is a curse and catastrophic point in one’s life. I experienced it. To tell you sincerely – this is the very first time in the entirety of my life that I fall in love. But because of things occurred last weeks I have to consider many things, I stop loving her because it will affect the friendship I created with that man. What a coincidence? We, best of friends, loved the same girl!!! Because of my kindliness and mediocrity, I let go. I don’t want to compromise the friendship I built just because of that lady!!! No way!!! Friends are more important to me!!!

……Now, may I share my calamitous experience which occurred last August 19 in Ciudad Christia? The reason behind the story why I drink (hehehe, 2 SMB Lite in can lang). I want to share this to let you know how I get hurt.

…..Week before the event, I told her that I love her!!! (First time again in history). Then I started making moves just to show my feelings and care for her. I sent her messages and love quotes. She told me, why only today? Meaning, we are close even before but only now I expreesed my feelings… I told her, there is already a threat!!! So I will make a move… I devoted my entire life to her even if always I saw her with the guy. I am a very covetous person and easily to get hurt… really!!!

…..Two day prior to the event, I decided not to go… because I promised to myself na I will never go on that team building because for sure OP ako dun!!! Circle of friends sila doon eh… then I told her that I am not joining and she replied that she was also not joining. A day after the event I decided to go… and I told her, please join because I will join. I will be giving you your allowance (100.00 hehehe) just to join!!! She didn’t reply on me. On that night I promised to look for a lavender dress for her. And I found one (she used it naman). When I told her if she will join, she said yes – but not to me (kanino? Sa other guy). So I didn’t take it seriously.

Let us go to the top 25 issues and I will not get into the details:

  1. Root beer – the reason why I drink at the early morning of August 19 because NAGSELOS talaga ako, seeing her with the guy. So the entire trip going to Rizal or should I say the entire 3 day-affair ay talagang wala ako sa mood. (buti na lang libre ako kaya OK lang).

  2. At the Bus – there is a “KANTYAWAN”. So I get hurt again.

  3. Meals

  4. Chair Arrangement

  5. Fever

  6. Texting with jen

  7. Session with Cathlyn

  8. Session with Bjorn

  9. Private Walk

  10. Sessionwith Tata

  11. Session with Gem

  12. Heartfelt Incident

  13. Private Talk

  14. A Favor

  15. Doubt

  16. Memorable Talk

  17. Group Dynamics

  18. Swimming

  19. Food Poison

  20. Practice

  21. Verbal War

  22. Presentation Issue

  23. Sleeping Issue

  24. Special Gathering

  25. Departure

  26. Text War.

…..I always get hurt seeing her with the guy. They were always together, I saw one time she was on the cottage of that guy. I self-pity because bakit di ko magawa na supposedly ay dapat kung gawin, to grab her attention!!! I never had done that. It is too hard to love, promise!!! Parang feel mo ay nasa fear factor ka or extra challenge. I consulted some of my classmates, and they told try to talk to her. Finally I talked to her, do I have any chance at all, kasi I always feel stupidity and nagmumukha akong tanga thinking of many things ang super na akong nahihirapan. Say if I have no chance at all or I have… she said SHE IS OPEN TO BOTH OF US… So I feel somehow gladness. Suddenly my friend from IAS SC texted me that night, after the private talk with that girl, she wanted me to go with her in the swimming pool to find his friend. Abruptly when we are walking approaching to the pool, I saw the girl and the man. Nasaktan na naman ako and I feel the pains until now, so I told to myself. I will stop this feelings to her because ako lang ang nasasaktan sa nakikita ko. There are times na pag nakikita ko sila ay biglang naghihiwalay. If I saw them na magkasama, ang isa ay biglang magtatago. Talaga, I told to myself, tama na kasi masakit. On our practice, I cannot understand why she always contradicting my points and suggestion (not contradicting pero somehow I was affected). To the point na di ko tinapos ang pagkain ko that night!!! And there is a verbal clash (slight) with her. After the presentation, I decided to treat my other classmates to play billiard and videoke… wala lang.. to relieve my anger and pains. And I drink 2 beers. So, yes, slightly nalasing ako because I never drink. talaga. That is the reason why I drink.

…..One day after the three-day affair, she texted me if galit ba ako sa kanya. Then I replied her and asking again if I have the chance.. kasi sa nakikita ko eh medyo Malabo...at para di ko na rin saktan sarili ko. I told her, sabihin mo totoo kasi I am willing to let go, kasi I don’t want to sacrifice the friendship I build to my friend (guy) because I treated him as one of my special best friends. Afterwards and finally, she said: “even before na nagsabi ako ng feelings….she started to fall in love with him” so medyo breath-taking at makalaglag puso (hehehe, corny) ang tagpong iyon. So I cried all night long!!! Until today we have no communication even if na lagi ko siyang kasama. About the man, back to norm, parang walang nangyari… kasi ayoko ipakita na I have problem. Friend ko siya kaya kung ano ang pinakita ko sa kanyang friendship before I never magbabago. It is my decision to let my feelings go… and I will never enter again in any relationship. Tama pala yung sinulat ko sa book ko regarding love story of ryan solis (my classmate) na: “Huwag laruin ang larong di alam kung paano laruin at tapusin”.

…..I want to go back to norm, kasi my relationship to my organization and to my classmates ay affected. I will not think problems na lang. enjoy na lang this life.

“It is happier, when you are alone”

Here I go again!!!

Here I go again!!!

No one loves, appreciates and cares me…

Are my sacrifices not enough?

I’ve done many things for others at it causes all of my heavy loads of emotional impasse.
Is there something wrong?


I am very thankful that God gave me wonderful gift… - friends. But, that gift always causes my problems and my life is always in jeopardy and hanging on the edge of the cliff.


Friends and best friends? Are you real or fake? Or there is something wrong in both of us?
Or am I always try hard to be your friend? I doubt… are these best friends of mine true or they just wearing their mask and pretending that they were happy in my companion? How much sacrifice you want me to do for you?


Am I tired? Definitely yes!!! I always defend people but when the times I need them to defend me… No response, no talk, no reply. Stop me!!! I don’t know who are real.


I am thankful because one man opened my stupid soul and gave me the reason to "review and screen again" the two sides (meron daw!!!) of one of my friends. I told that ____ is great and good!!! but that man told me... "sa iyo, oo... sa amin hindi!!! hmmm...


haaayyy... it is too hard for me to accept that one of my friends do have such two sides of personality... To me.. ___ is good..


No more personal messages, good nights and mornings, inspirational quotes and name droppings!!! Sino ba ako di ba? Are my texts matters? Ohh... really.. common!!! medyo nasaktan lang ako... so give me again one month...

another thing... STOP ME!!! Hindi ako kagaya nila.. OK... if you are questioning my personality and acts... F@#k you!!! as i said... if you will continue in doing so... I AM THE ONE WHO WILL DIG YOUR OWN GRAVE!!!

It is over acting on my part… I realize that there is no such thing as best!!! Coz best sometimes becomes worst.

My Sacrifices... It is worth it!!!

The month of September is the month for reconciliation!!!

I can sacrifice all my wants and happiness. i can let things go. just not to break the trust and the friendship I'd created and made for three years. My book's message is somehow true and tama rin din ako. Maraming beses na and this is how I measure in searching and finding true friends...real friends. Kahit ano'ng mangyari ay handa kong ibigay ang lahat huwag lang masira ang foundation na ginawa ko at pilit nang binubuo.

It is time to reveal the 5 special people in my life na I realize na kapag nawala sila ay talagang I have now the reason to commit any suicidal attempt!!!

1. Paul Marie Allanigue
2. Joanalyn Barayuga
3. Rommell Concepcion
4. Princess Jeremiah Santos
5. Czar Alexis Rimando

Thank you because you teached me na gumising sa katotohanan! Ngayon ko nakilala ang sarili ko bilang ako. i now proved na kaya kong isugal ang sarili kong kasiyahan, kapakanan at kalooban. na kaya kong kainin ang sarili kong kahihiyan para lamang sa limang iyan. It is too hard to sacrificed myself just for them... but sacrifing for them is worth it!!! Gagawin ko... maging masaya lamang kayo...

Kay Czar:
ang taong matagal ko nang nirerespeto... Never akong nagalit kasi ayoko magalit... siguro sama ng loob pero hanggang doon lang! I sacrificed a lot of things even noon pa...
it is too hard to accept that we loved only one person... but letting go is only the way to set my emotions and feelings free... it is myu choice in doing such move, because I don't want to break your trust in me and also the friendship... friends are more important than my feelings.... No regrets ako!!! Basta I am happy!!! Enjoy your life with her as I enjoy my life with ... myself!!! hahaha

kay rommell:
Now I realized how important you are to me as friend. You helped me realizing all the stupidities in my life, salamat for giving me the courage in facing my imperfections! We don't talked often... but I know that in silence we usually talks!!! wow... lalim hanggang Marianas Trench... because of you, I now realize the true essence of friendship...

kay Paul:
My super special best friend! Jen asked me few months ago kung bakit hindi raw kita inaaway... I don't speak but my heart said "in doing such, it may/can cause of my early death" Ang kalabanin si Paul ay imposible kong gawin kasi ikamamatay ko... belive me!He is the best person na nakilala ko.... isama na rin si Jen, heheh

kay princess:
I can't rememeber in point in my life na nakagalit ko ito! Siguro it's my choice.. really! kasi ayoko talaga... I built the friendship with you last swimming.. when I am always down, you care... and I appreciates it!!! Thank you for such a wonderful friendly relations with you...

kay joan:
Even if na medyo di na tayo magkasama lagi, just bear in mind... just because of you I learned how to go out in my comfort zone (wow!!! very peace ed) You are the reason of my changews... you helped me to recover from the deep emotional coma i had experienced... you are the very first person na naging kaibigan ko and I will never let you go!!!



Final word:


"kahit anong hampas ng alon ang gawin sa dalampasigan ko, buhangin pa rin akong hindi magpapadala sa agos nito... tandaan mo kahit pilit akong nilalayo... kakapit at kakapit ako"...
-Message Sent (040607)

IAS IAS!!! IAS UP!!! IAS IAS UP!!! Hehehe

ANG IAS TEAMBUILDING!!!
August 19, 2006

4:45–syempre early bird lagi akong dumating, so ako ang first student na nakarating!!!Nag-taxi kaya ako huag lang malate!!! Pero anong oras dumating ang bus, ha? 6:30!!! Uhmmm…. At ang first adviser naman ay si Tata… (Bentor)

7:00–waahhhh… 2 hours ako naghintay… pero in fairness, PolSciSoc ang first society na nakarating sa school ng complete (hindi man lang na recognize)

First day ay nakakabagot…. Super… from 9-9 ata puro talk…. Sari-saring kwentuhan… pero masaya naman kasi binusog kami ng pagkain. Then may activity noong night pero I didn’t go out in my room kasi I have emotional tribulation (hahaha) I nevr go out kasi. And then there is a bonfire.

Emotionally, super galit ako nung umaga hanggang late 11 pm, because of one person (kailangan pa bang i-memorize yan?)!!!! Buti na lang noong 12-1:-00 am after the bonfire… I had a time na makipagkwentuhan kay Ms. Ann Margaret… and talagang pinilit kong lumabas ng room ko (#25) just to go to room number 3 of Cabana para lamang makipagkita sa kanya because she needed my help (o… superman!!!)…so napangiti naman ako for the first time….and no regret ako nang lumabas kasi nagkwentuhan kami.


August 20, 2006

Group dynamics naman… Feeling ko over-all champion ang PolsciSoc… Nadaya na nga lang… pero ok lang… wala kami sa winning… marami na kami nyan eh (hahaha ang yabang)

coincidence na pareho kami ni czar ng damit… si Erick din at gem pareho… heheheh (hindi yan co-incidence.. .sinadya!!!)

Then, nag 9 waves kami!!! Sarap naman dun… tapos nakita ko na naman siya… hehehe… Ciudad Christia is a nice place!!!

Emotionally… hindi na naman… hanggang gabi yan…. Umiyak ako ng umiyak… super galit ako talaga.. Because of stupid thing!!!! Sa totoo lang… I done things na ikinagulat at ikinapagtaka ng polsci pipz… and na-realize nila na may problem nga ako… the, we had time na mag videoke at mag-billiards… ayoko ng ikwento ang reason kasi… masakit siya… One more thing…. Food poison!!!! Nakakagulat kasi… sunod sunod ang natamaan ng meningo daw sabi ni Erick, hahaha!!! Pati ang best friend ko na si Paul at friend ko na rin na si PASCASIO (heheh - friend ko po za!!!)) ay nabiktima ng mga pesteng cook sa Ciudad Christia!!! (another reason iyan ng ginawa ko at that night)… nakakainis kasi…

That night also is the presentation night… BULAGAAN ang mga lolo niyo… 3rd kami!!! Kasi humaba yung sa amin!!! Pero… we feel somehow galit because of the awarding rites… I never/ we never expect na ganun ang set-up… more on negative awards!!! So hiyang hiya naman ako nung matawag kami.. yun pala …. Negative ang message nung award… so the ENTIRE POLITICAL SCIENCE SOCIETY ay medyo nainsulto….


August 21, 2006

Uwian na…. hehehe…. NAG COMMUTE ako… dyan lang kaya sa Cainta ang bahay ko!!! Magpapakamartir na naman ako na pumunta pa ng FEU? Hmmppp… no way… hehehe In totality, masasabi kong naging OK na rin ang team building,… but marami ang kulang… I heard na mas better daw ang Caliraya (wala ako nun sa Caliraya kaya di ko macompare)… Time management… wala siya!!! Lagging late… akala ko nga merienda pa lang yun pala dinner na iyon!!! Kasi hindi nasunod ang time… pero masaya naman because we have time to relax and enjoy the 9 waves of Ciudad Christia!!! Basta that 3-day affair ay di o masaya because of one person lang!!! leche… Tama na ang one yar para di ko imikan ang taong iyon!!!! Form no on…

ANG PROBLEM KO… EH siguro… ayoko ng isipin… kasi may nagpapalakas ng loob ko!!! And I am happy for that!!!

Thank you Ann!!!

48 LAWS OF POWER!!!

Hmmm here I am again….

I want to share naman this thing…. THE 48 Laws of Power….

I was intrigued by this law so I lent one from my classmate. Unfortunately, that God-damn book lost. No to blame… it is my stupidity…

When I opened that book I felt a little nervousness and excitement because I heard some rumors that this book is all about, somewhat dictatorial type of leadership. And…. The chitchats are true...

It stated about powers that should be done by leader (but these are all negative style and should not be used against to someone…. Hmmmmm…!)
Now…..


Out of 48, 8 laws caught my attention.

Law #2 = Never too Much trust in Friends, learn to use Enemies
Law #7 = Get others to do the work for you, but ALWAYS take the credit
Law #11 = Learn to Keep People Dependent on You
Law #14 = Pose as a Friend, Work as a Spy
Law #15 = Crush your enemy Totally
Law #26 = keep your hands Clean
Law #29 = Plan all the Way to the End
Law #41 = Avoid Stepping into a Great Man’s Shoes

I was somewhat happy na rin because all of the 8 law were done when I was in high school and even on this very minute.

High school and college….

Andrew’s regime….

I was elected as the President of:

2002-2003 Student Body Organization
2002-2003 Senior Class
2001-2003 Social Studies
2002-2003 Biodiversity Club

And I was elected as LITTLE MAYOR last December 2003.


My leadership style is dictatorial. I see to it that all my subordinates will follow all my directives even if it is unfavorable to them. It is matter of choice – follow me or resign….. That’s it. Deal or no Deal? . I am also a perfectionist one. If I give you task…do it on or before the deadline… wala lang trip ko lang. If you hesitate to follow me… see you on the office of the principal. I am a very influential individual at that time. Also, a very highly regarded student.

Many of my classmates before told me that I’d change. Yes, who cares? Are you the one who feed me? Clothe me? Mind your own business. I am doing mine.

All of my decisions are decisions of all. Weather you like it or not. Better to follow!!!
After my 4 years in highschool… I have many enemies. The thing I did, I crushed them, totally.
Reverse mode is happening….

Today… it is too hard for me to apply this.(coz I am not president of any org. only vice – but still I have the reason to do this thing again)

It is time to move one from the greatest devastation I’d encounter with PSO241 and also the POLSCI people.


I am friendly… but sometimes enemy…

I am plastic only to the people who I think is plastic…

Now, I didn’t trust some of them because I think they will put me down. SABAY TAYO!!!
I do the work, syempre leader… but the credit syempre wala di ba.. so hindi ko ma-apply.
Sometimes, there are certain times na they depend on me and on my decisions.
Being bad is nice… NGAYONG KILALA KO NA ANG TOTOO KONG MGA KAIBIGAN… 3 years tayong magkasama? Ngayon ko lang nakilala…

MGA KAKLASE KO NUONG HIGHSCHOOL and also to my beloved section
ITS PAYBACK TIME… I am tired of being loner, timid, sensitive and caring… Sa lahat ng NAGBAKSAK sa akin ngayon……. Kilala mo kung sino ka…

I CHANGE A LOT pati na rin ugali ko BECAUSE OF YOU…I want you to realize this…
KUNG KAYA MO AKO…

E ANONGAYON? EH KAYA RIN KITA….

I AM HERE…. Gantihan lang po tayo…

SA LAHAT NG TAONG BUMANGGA AT BUMABANGGA SA AKIN….


I will pose as a friend but I will work as a spy…


(THIS ARTICLE IS NOT REFERRING TO A CERTAIN PERSON OR INDIVIDUAL. IT IS FOR ALL PEOPLE WHO “GAVE ME THE REASON TO THIS SINISTER THING”)

Ang P1 at ang CASANJO RESORT!!!!!

well, eto na naman ako..... the 6th post.....
this post is dedicated to the 14 individuals:

1. princess
2. cathlyn
3. ryan
4. paul
5. dwight
6. vhan
7. herbert
8. joshua
9. danilo
10. jennifer (p2 ....)
11. rommell
12. czar
13. kiko (ni cathlyn)
14. hyden (ni vhan)


ang swimming ay naisip ko lang with princess kasama ang mga close friends lang... siguro mga 5 lang pwede na....

then, nag text si cathlyn na sasama siya....
sabi ko..... itutuloy ko to....

the first plan was in loreland resort in antipolo.... pero dahil sa baka ma short sa budget eh napagdesisyunan ko na sa may amin na lang.... sa greenpark swimming pool....sagot ko na ang tutulugan at ang breakfast kinabukasan....
nagtext ako ng nagtext sa p1 kung sino ang gusto.... then three replied...


1. herbert
2. ryan
3. joshua

medyo ok na kasi at least, 6 na kami..

nag plano na ako ng budget..... at nagprepare na rin sa "big night"...

but wait.... nagkaroon ng problem...
ung greenpark swimming pool (di ko alam pangalan ng resort) eh nakareserve na.... i texted paul allanigue (na pumayag na ring sumama because of rommell) at sabi ko sa kanya... wag nya munang sabihin na nagkaproblem about sa resort....

den i run to the final and last resort.... ang CASANJO RESORT.... at un.... ok na....
thank God its wednesday.......

wednesday night nag plano na ako.... then sa budget at sa lahat lahat pati sa food..
then sabi ni tito.... siya na lang magbabayad ng room (nipa hut) dun.... para may matulugan and ako na rin ang sumagot sa breakfast at mga curls.....

pagdating ng wednesday night, sabi ko kay ryan, cathlyn at princess tama na ang mag invite.....
on the following morning... tinawagan ko ang lahat... for confirmation...
kaya sigurado na sina paul, herbert, rommell, danilo, joshua, princess, cathlyn, ryan, vhan at bf niya thursday pa lang.... kasi gusto ko ok ang lahat bago ituloy ang plano.....
then.. siyempre may biruang nangyari na bakit di ko raw inimbitahan si _____? then thursday night.... rommell texted me...

"totoo ba"
"na ano" , sabi ko
"ksama si ____ at ______"... (bestfriends nya daw)

waaahhhhh....... hindi nga? .......
nagulat ako at pinagpawisan ng sobra...... (alam ninyo na kung bakit....)

un pala, joke joke lang.... hehehe.... (xensya na kay _____...)
pero, that night..... pumayag na rin sina dwight and czar.....
well, friday..... eto na... namalengke na ako...... this is it....
settled na....

ang meeting place ay sa school.....


pagdating sa school..... sabi ko sharp 2 pupunta na kami sa amin... pero 3 na kami umalis dahil sa mga pasaway..... paul, czar at dwight.... isama na rin si jennifer silang apat ang hinintay pero in the end.... nahuli pa rin, kaya nauna na kami.... at talagang uminit ang ulo ko sa kabagalan.... hehehe sensya na kasi galit ako sa pagong..... strict ako sa time... pag sinabing 2:00, kailangang 1:00 andun na

at exactly 5...... nag umpisa na akong magluto.....

wow.... before pa lang na pumunta sa pool, nag aalala na ako kasi....

1. baka makarinig ako ng negative comments about sa pool, food and sa nipa
pero as of now (7:40 pm april 2, 2006) ay wala pa......
pero nagkamali ako..... marami pala akong napasaya.....

hindi ko ini expect na sasama at pupunta sina dwight, paul, rommell at czar na ni sa panaginip ko ay talagang mahirap silang imbitahan lalo na di ko sila masyado ka close..... nuon yun.... di ba Paul? hehehe


napakasaya ko kasi.....

1. naging successful ang plano
2. naging masaya ang lahat
3. maraming pumunta
4. nakilala ko kayo...
o eto na ang testimonial.......

saying thank you is not enough para masabi kong napakasaya ko salahat ng nangyari last friday night.....
parang naging bull session nga at naglabas ng mga sama ng loob sa isa't isa.....


dwight.... hindi po ako galit sa iyo..... siguro noon yun.... nung mga time na di pa kita masyado kilala...

ryan.... di rin ako galit sa iyo ..... siguro sumama lang loob.... nuon yun..... wala na ngayon...
hindi ko rin ini expect na ibinalik ninyo ang "MINERAL WATER ISSUE" .... at yun... alam ninyo na ang puno't dulo ng sama ng loob ko sa kanya.... nuon yun, hindi na ngayon.... thanks dwight sa pag open - naliwanagan na ang lahat...

that night is the most memorable night happened in my entire college life (siguro sa buong buhay ko na rin)
first time lahat....


1. uminom ng alak (GSM Blue.... 3 bottles)
2. organize a party
3. mag over night
4. sumama sa isang swimming
5. malasing at magpaka "high" sa alak, heheheh


napakasaya ko talaga... kasi naging masaya kayo..

yun lang ang wish ko... na makitang masaya ang iba.... kahit na ako ang mag suffer...
(yung pictures eh i post ko na lang sa photo album.... sooonnnn...)
well, thank you sa lahat ng nakisaya at nakigulo.... di ko ini expect na ganoon ang outcome ng lahat ng sacrifice at pagod ko....... successful talaga...

wala na ako ma say....... ganun pala ang feeling.....

next morning.... hang over mode..... heheheh, hilo-hiluhan kuno... kasi talagang nalasing ako.... hanggang kahapon.... talagang... wow... ngayon lang ako nalasing at uminom.....

nung umuwi na kayo at nagpaalam... umiyak ako at iniyakan ko ang lahat... tears of joy... kahit ngayon... kulang ang thank you... para pasalamatan kayo....

sana talaga naging happy kayo.... salamat....
salamat... salamat... salamat talaga... wow grabe.....
di ko alam kung ano nasa isip ninyo... di ko alam kung nasiyahan talaga kayo....
you know what.... i am happy because i met pso231 people.... i met such wonderful individuals..... yan na ang greatest gift ni God na ibinigay sa akin....
that night is unforgettable.....

wow... talaga.... di ko alam na ang sasabihin ko.....

salamat kay princess... kasi plan niya rin ito.... effort- effortan..... heheheheh

salamat kay dwight....

salamat kay paul.... na malaki ang naitulong sa akin....... si best friend... hehehe

salamat kay cathlyn.... sana ok na kayo ni czar.....

salamat kay ryan....

salamat kay vhan....

salamat kay rommell..... iba ka rommell.....

salamat kay herbert

salamat kay joshua....

salamat kay czar..... sana ok na kayo ni cathlyn.....

salamat kay danilo

salamat kay jennifer..... happy birthday poh (april 2), napakabait mo..... salamat po kasi nakilala kita...

salamat kina kiko at hyden.......


salamat ng marami..........

mahal ko po kayong lahat....... di ninyo lang alam....


(sana....... maulit muli...... at sana lahat..... kayo na lang ang mag-organize..... pero ok din kong ako...... kapag ako ang nag organize...... pwersahan.... at ang hindi talaga sasama..... WAR......)
sana ininvite ko si ______, para nakausap ko rin... at mag sorry.......
talaga salamat salamat salamat salamat salamat salamat salamat........
grabe na to.... thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you thank you

ssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmmaaaaaaaaattttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow, sobra......

TOP 15 PEOPLE NA HINDING HINDI KO MALILIMUTAN

Ilang buwan na lang fourth year na tayo… isang taon na lang…
magkakahiwalay na tayo…

If QTV 11 has its own show entitled “PINAKA”, of course, I have my own version Well, siguro kaibigan na ang pinakamahalagang regalo ni GOD. Andyan din lagi sa tabi if you need comfort and inspirations.

Lahat naman kaibigan ko.... but there are few siguro na talagang nag inspire para gawin ko ang mga bagay na ito....

Who are the top 15? Top 15 of my life… 15 I won’t forget, 15 who change me, 15 who always inspires me, 15 advisers, 15 persons who made my college life wonderful. 15 persons who always make my day complete. I love you 15… Let’s start with the…..

15th
First impressions last talaga. She is one of the wonderful lady – both in p1 and p2. Hehehe. She is very kind to me. I am very pleased dahil naging close tayo. Siya lagi ang kakwentuhan ko, madaling lapitan and masayang kasama...... Thank you po…. She is always there to give me advice every time I have problems…. Araw- araw na nga ata…. She is brave…. She is non other than…… MARIANNE INOFINADA

14th
Naughty.... hehehehe.... pero masayang kasama at laging andyan to comfort you...... Sa totoo lang, hindi ako pwedeng magsimulang mag SPEECH kung hindi ko siya nakikita. She is my inspiration every time na may SPEECH kaming gagawin. Kasi ayaw kong masayang ang tiwala niya sa akin kung di ko gagalingan ang SPEECH ko. Thank you because di mo ako nakakalimutang itext. Salalat sa support at trust…. CATHLYN DE GUZMAN

13th
Lucky number…. Yes, Na touch ako nang one time eh tanungin niya ko na “Why don’t you run?” Saan po? Ang sabi niya….. “Sa Pol Sci Election next Semester!”. Whhhhaaaaatttt ....... talaga naman.... May trust siya sa akin, sobrang taas… She saw my efforts na ginawa ko last election (FEUCSO and IAS). I can’t believe na galing sa isang respected faculty member ng Political Science and History Department ang isa sa mga mag coconvince sa akin. Don’t worry Ma’am, tatakbo ulit ako… Thank you po…… PROFESSOR DOLORES ALIGADA – REYES

12th
Mabait.... as in super.... super woman!!!! hahahahahh.... Madaling lapitan, alam nya ang problems ko. Isa sa mga advisers ko. Kaya siguro unti-unti na ring nagbago ako.... Hoy, mali ang impression mo sa akin noon, kasi siguro hindi mo pa ako gaanong kilala. So I think, alam mo na ngayon, na kung ano at sino ako. Salamat at andyan ka lagi, – RHIANE BORNALES

11th
One of the Best Political Science Presidents!!! Siya ang naging inspiration ko para MULING TUMAKBO sa Political Science Election. She taught me a lot of things. But, we have a different leadership style siguro . Napakagaling niya as a leader and as the same time as a student..... Siya lang ang officer o fourth year na hindi dinahilan ang thesis making para hindi na gumalaw sa society. Congratulations, graduate ka na. i hope na maging maganda pa ang future mo and your career..... Thank you at nakilala kita – MA. THERESA VARGAS

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O ayan na ang first 5….. ito na uli ang next 5………
10th
Minsan na akong sumama ang loob sa taong ito. Last March 2, 2006, pero OK na kami ngayon. I learn a lot from you. Ang ganda ng mga advice mo sa akin and tama ka. Ayoko ng isipin pa ang mga taong wala namang pakialam sa damdamin ng iba at ayoko na ring mag expect ng kahit anong recognition kasi lalo akong nasasaktan. Thank you… ang dami ng bagay na ginawa mo para sa akin. Sobrang thankful ako… Kahit na this year lang kita naging kaklase - RACQUEL BALAO-AS

9th
First impressions? Mayabang, sobra…. Mahangin… Mataas…
Noon yun, kasi di ko pa siya kilala. Umiinit ang ulo ko every time na makikita ko ang taong ito KASI nga medyo nayayabangan ako sa kanya noon........ February 9, 2006, nagbago lahat… (hiyang hiya nga ako sa sarili ko kasi iba ang tingin ko sa iyo noon.....) At that time, problematic ako, and unexpectedly, he texted me a quote…. Na hindi ko akalaing, isang Dwight ang magtetext nun sa akin. Bigla na lang naging magaan ang pakiramdam ko nung mabasa ko ang text niya... Then, nag start na ang friendship namin, he always send me a quotes and messages, sometimes kwentuhan. I am happy kasi hindi niya ako nakakalimutang itext, kahit na forwarded yun at group sending mode…. I am very lucky kasi natulungan niya ako dati in my studies. Sobrang thankful ako talaga because i met a brilliant buddy.......... Salamat po – DONALD DWIGHT OMEGA

8th
One of the brilliant Political Science students, my buddy…
Naging close kami, lately...... We are very open to share sentiments to each other. Ang kaaway ko, eh kaaway rin pala niya (mr. _________ ba?) oo siya nga…. Open siya sa lahat, sa kanya rin ako kumukuha ng guts to continue my fight against unscrupulous people, hahahahh. matapang ka kasi... hindi katulad ko na weak pagdating sa mga ganyang bagay..... I am happy na makasama ko siya sa Political Science Society. Thank you because I met you, the great ORADEC member – GERALDINE AGUINALDO

7th
Wow..... Sorry, four months kitang di kinausap (September-January 2005) alam mo na ang dahilan….
Siguro misunderstanding lang. pero I am thankful kasi andyan ka lagi, one of my advicers at masayang kausap.You are one of the best peorson na nakilala ko ngayon sa college years ko.Ganun din, masama ang first impression ko sa iyo… pero habang nagtatagal, nakikilala na kita… kasi naman.... ang dakilang Ilocana. basta salamat talaga sa lahat ng naitulong mo... Thank you… naging part ka ng makulay kong buhay…. Kapuso…. Hehehehhh – LOI VANESSA DUQUE
6th
Lady from Taytay… May LRT buddy, noon...... Maarte siya…. Vocal and sometimes nakakasakit na rin…. Yan na naman tayo…. Talagang first impressions last talaga…..
Nasasabihan siya ng problema. I am happy kasi malaki ang tiwala pala sa akin nito as a student. Salamat at napapansin mo rin ang intelligence ko (meron ba talaga?). Thank you for everything. Sa mga quotes mo and text… sa tawa at galit… Siguro alam mo na ang lahat ng problema ko…. Kasi alam mo naman na ang problema ko talaga…. ay ibang tao at hindi sarili ko…. Mahal ko kasi kayo… Salamat po¬- PRINCESS JEREMIAH SANTOS
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Top 5…
.. I am happy kasi nakilala ko kayo ng lubos. NAGING Totoo kayo… kasi naging totoo din ako sa inyo… You 5… I am very happy kahit na naging masama ang ugali ko sa inyo… you… five… salamat…..

5th
Small but terrible. One of the first… siya ang little sister ko…. Sa problema ko at sa lahat lahat, andyan ka lagi para damayan ako. I am happy because nakilala kita, isa ka talaga sa tunay… andami ninyo para sa rank 1 pero dapat isa isa lang…. hehehehee, malay mo diba… hindi ko na to masabi, baka biglang kunin ni ……. (Knock on wood!) Adviser ko rin yan. Thank you sa ballpen…. Alam mo na….. Every time na may problem ako… hinihiram ko ballpen niya. Salamat, sa naitulong sa akin this sem– MARIE KRISTIN CONCEPCION

4th
Ang pinaka….. reponsableng tao sa Political Science World. Ang taong natalo by 15 votes sa IAS election. Friendly, honest and kind… Siguro ako na ang taong sobrang nalungkot nung matalo siya… because alam ko ang kakayanan niya as a student and as a leader. The main purpose why I supported my four classmates’ last election…. It’s because of you….
Kasi its to hard for me… magkaiba kayo ng party… lalo ka na… iisa sa party, kaya kailangan mo ng katulong....and give you the assurance na lahat ng boto mo eh counted sa iyo. hehehe Na disappoint talaga ako. Ako ang first disciple of czar!!!!!
Well, thank you… naging magkasangga tayo sa PolSciSoc, tinutulungan ako. Don’t worry, tayo pa rin naman ang magkikita kita sa finals… the Political Science Society. Salamat sa lahat… you taught me how to handle things and this society. Friend ko yan… close ally… alam niya ang problems ko… Salamat at andyan ka to help – CZAR ALEXIS RIMANDO

3rd
whaaahhh.....
sa dinami rami ng mga kaibigan ko ngayon, eh bakit siya ang 3rd, kahit siguro kayo ay magtataka kung bakit napasama ang taong ito....
well, “Expect the unexpected”, yes naman…. My BEST FRIEND… My best buddy… best textmate… the best person on EARTH!!!
Kahit hanggang 12 a.m. kwentuhan kami nyan.hindi ko nga alm baka nagagalit na sa akin yan kasi makulit ako sa text... heheheeh
Siya na siguro ang taong walang galit sa mundo. You cannot see it on his face.
Siya lang ang taong nasabihan ko ng problems ko, sentiments at sama ng loob.... wala ng iba... we have a secrecy technique heheheheeh . at siya lang ang pinagkakatiwalaan ko.
The wonderful person I’ve known. He always makes me happy… sa mga text messages nya and sa tawa niya. Alam mo yan…
Ikaw lang ang pinagkakatiwalaan ko. I am happy kasi naging part ka ng makulay at magulo kong mundo. Alam mo na kung ano at sino ang problema ko. Pero naging ok na ako ngayon, andami mo kasing advice na binigay sa akin, nagbago talaga ako.... at tama ka… hindi masamang magalit.. wag lang magtanim ng sama ng loob… Yes… you are my guidance counselor!!!! Heheheh. Thank you…..Thank you…. I will not forget your good deeds.
wala na talaga akong masabi, basta thankful ako kasi maroon akong best and special friend.... Mr. Paul-Sci!!!!! ¬– PAUL MARIE ALLANIGUE

2nd
Sino kaya ito…. Guess who… Ito na yata ang taong hinding-hindi ko malilimutan… Siya na yata ang taong inaway ko, na hindi naman niya alam…. insensitive in short , heheheh, joke lang..... wag ka ng magalit…
February 13, 2005, February 2, 2006 and March 9, 2006.
Sa totoo lang, he is the reason why I change my sim to Globe… kasi para magsend ako sa kanya ng sorry text messages… yun lang ang purpose ko… at di naman niya ako binigo.. nagsorry rin siya.
Siya rin ang reason kung bakit naging addict ako sa paggawa ng Blog… kasi siya lahat ang laman niyan… Masama talaga ang loob ko sa iyo at galit na galit ako sa iyo…. Noon yun….. ah kahapon lang pala. Pero I realize something… na tama ka sa sinabi mo… na talagang hindi ako nagiging masaya sa lahat ng bagay kapag sensitive ako masyado..
"U KNOW ANDREW IF U WILL CONTINUE TO BE SO SENSITIVE EVERYTIME, YOU WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER WILL FEEL THAT VERY SAME THING THAT YOU ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW... I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO CALL IT, BUT BELIEVE ME, IT WON'T MAKE YOU HAPPY"
Masyado ko kasi kayong iniiisip… kasi mahal ko ang kaibigan ko. At kaya ko magsacrifice at mamatay para lang ipagtanggol kayo… Sorry sa lahat ng mga nangyari.. Masyado lang akong naging emosyonal masyado… masyadong vocal na kahit na little things e napapalaki ko. Sana lang ma appreciate mo ang bagay na ginagawa ko, kasi ganyan lang ako, sa mga kaibigan ko. I supported you last election with purpose… reconciliation sa ginawa ko last February 2 (pinahiya kita sa Public Speaking about sa nangyari sa birthday ko.) and I am happy at natulungan kita. Nung March 9, 2006 nagtet ako ng mga negative text messages…. And next morning nag sorry ako… talaga, sorry po.
Friends na tayo ha… and I am happy kasi pinatawad na niya ako.. and this is the reason na pang-apat na ang nakapost sa blog ko. Salamat po… sa lahat Mr. President – PASCASIO JOSHUA MARIA HO VICARIO III

1st
Tanga lang ang hindi makakakilala sa kanya… ang lagi kong kasama… ang best sa lahat ng friends ko. Siya lagi ang kasama ko, siya rin ay nasasabihan ko ng problems ko…. Well, thank you…. Kasi andyan ka pa rin, nagtyatyaga sa init ng ulo ko, pula ng tainga ko at sa araw araw kong pagkagalit… Salamat kasi naging totoo ka sa akin… yan ang hinahanap ko sa kaibigan… 3 T’S tunay, tapat at Totoo….
Wala ako masabing negative sa kanya… halos araw araw ko siyang katulong…. Assignments... Projects at sa thesis…. Lagi kong ka-group mate. THANK YOU… kasi naging friend kita… thank you at lagging naandyan ka…. Salamat sa lahat… you are the person na hindi ko malilimutan until the day I die… salamat… salamat…. Salamat… - JOANALYN BARAYUGA


Sa lahat po ng wala dito, xensya na. Nasa 16th place lahat kayo… kasi kung wala din kayo…. Wala din ako ngayon.
Thanks kina Raiza, Ryan, Danilo at sa iba pa…..
Thank you na rin kina ….
EVANGELINE SANTOS, KRISCHELLE MAYUGA, MARK SALVADOR YSLA, PROFESSOR GEMENIANO BENTOR, PROFESSOR PAULINO SALVADOR and PROFESSOR JOHNELYN GEMZON.
KAIBIGAN….. USAP TAYO…
HAHAHAHAH JOKE LANG……
it is time to reveal.....
WHO ARE MY TRUE FRIENDS.......
JOAN
PAUL
PRINCESS

TAMA NA... AYOKO NA

SIGURO, IT'S TIME FOR ME TO MOVE ON NA.........

MARAMI LANG AKONG NASASAKTANG TAO..... AND AS THE SAME TIME NASASAKTAN KO NA RIN ANG SARILI KO... SOBRA AKONG NAGE EXPECT, SOBRA AKONG SENSITIVE, SOBRA AKONG EMOTIONAL...

My sensitivity cause problems na mag minsan ay nagiging insensitive na rin ako....

FROM NOW ON, I WILL TRY NOT TO BE SO EMOTIONAL AND SO SENSITIVE IN ALL THINGS.... KASI, BAKA ITO ANG IKAMATAY KO... HEHEHHE....

i will try to be kind to Others. kahit na maging OA ako or magpaka trying hard na lapitan ang mga taong plastik sa akin, maging kind lang ako.

MASYADO KONG PINALALAKI ANG MGA MALILIIT NA BAGAY BAGAY.... KASI SA PAGIGING SENSITIBO KO....

Hindi akO plastik!!! yan lang ang gusto kong sabihin. sana maging quiet na lang ako sa aking emotions at huwag ng sabihin sa iba because it hurts more. i realize na rin na marami na pala akong nasaktan dahil naging insensitibo na rin ako. yun ang mali ko, nakikita ko ang mali ng iba, pero ang mali ko ay di ko nakikita.

SALAMAT SA MGA TAONG NAGMULAT SA AKING BULAG NA PAG-IISIP....
MASYADONG NANGINGIBABAW ANG GALIT SA PUSO KESA SA DIKTA NG ISIPAN...
MAGIGIG HAPPY NA AKO.....

NA REALIZE KO NA NA PWEDENG MAGING TAMA AKO AT HINDI....

TO ALL PEOPLE OUT THERE SORRY, AYOKO NG PALAKIHIN ANG ISANG MALIIT NA BAGAY. NAIIINIS NA AKO SA SARILI KO KASI MASYADO KONG INIISIP ANG IBA.
I WILL NOT FORGET THIS DAY.....

THIS MESSAGE:
"U KNOW ANDREW IF U WILL CONTINUE TO BE SO SENSITIVE EVERYTIME, YOU WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER WILL FEEL THAT VERY SAME THING THAT YOU ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW... I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO CALL IT, BUT BELIEVE ME, IT WON'T MAKE YOU HAPPY"


TAMA..... HINDI NGA AKO NAGING MASAYA... AYOKO NA RING ISIPIN ANG MGA TAONG HINDI NAMAN AKO KAYANG INTINDIHIN

I WANT A HAPPY LIFE.... AYOKO NG ISIPIN KAYO...... AYOKO NG MAGING SENSITIVE.... KASI MAS LALONG NAGING WEAK ANG PAGKATAO KO, KAYA SIGURO GANITO AKO LAGI.


I WOULD LIKE TO SAY SORRY TO ALL PEOPLE NA NA HURT KO BEFORE:
1. PASCASIO JOSHUA MARIA HO VICARIO III
2. LOI VANESSA VENDIOLA
3. DANILO CORTEZ, JR.
4. DONALD DWIGHT OMEGA
5. SOME POLITICAL SCIENCE OFFICERS


I WANT TO THANK THE FOLLOWING WHO HELP ME IN REALIZING THOSE THINGS AT NAINTINDIHAN AKO:
1. PAUL MARIE ALLANIGUE
2. KRISTINE CONCEPCION
3. JOANALYN BARAYUGA
4. GERALDINE AGUINALDO
5. RHIANE BORNALES
AT MARAMI PANG IBA...

TAMA NA... I WANT PEACEFUL HEART AND MIND....... I DON'T WANT NA MAGALIT MULI SA LAHAT NG TAONG KAIBIGAN KO..
SORRY.... SORRY.... SORRY....

TAMA NA... AYOKO NA

SIGURO, IT'S TIME FOR ME TO MOVE ON NA.........

MARAMI LANG AKONG NASASAKTANG TAO..... AND AS THE SAME TIME NASASAKTAN KO NA RIN ANG SARILI KO... SOBRA AKONG NAGE EXPECT, SOBRA AKONG SENSITIVE, SOBRA AKONG EMOTIONAL...

My sensitivity cause problems na mag minsan ay nagiging insensitive na rin ako....

FROM NOW ON, I WILL TRY NOT TO BE SO EMOTIONAL AND SO SENSITIVE IN ALL THINGS.... KASI, BAKA ITO ANG IKAMATAY KO... HEHEHHE....

i will try to be kind to Others. kahit na maging OA ako or magpaka trying hard na lapitan ang mga taong plastik sa akin, maging kind lang ako.

MASYADO KONG PINALALAKI ANG MGA MALILIIT NA BAGAY BAGAY.... KASI SA PAGIGING SENSITIBO KO....

Hindi akO plastik!!! yan lang ang gusto kong sabihin. sana maging quiet na lang ako sa aking emotions at huwag ng sabihin sa iba because it hurts more. i realize na rin na marami na pala akong nasaktan dahil naging insensitibo na rin ako. yun ang mali ko, nakikita ko ang mali ng iba, pero ang mali ko ay di ko nakikita.

SALAMAT SA MGA TAONG NAGMULAT SA AKING BULAG NA PAG-IISIP....
MASYADONG NANGINGIBABAW ANG GALIT SA PUSO KESA SA DIKTA NG ISIPAN...
MAGIGIG HAPPY NA AKO.....

NA REALIZE KO NA NA PWEDENG MAGING TAMA AKO AT HINDI....

TO ALL PEOPLE OUT THERE SORRY, AYOKO NG PALAKIHIN ANG ISANG MALIIT NA BAGAY. NAIIINIS NA AKO SA SARILI KO KASI MASYADO KONG INIISIP ANG IBA.
I WILL NOT FORGET THIS DAY.....

THIS MESSAGE:
"U KNOW ANDREW IF U WILL CONTINUE TO BE SO SENSITIVE EVERYTIME, YOU WILL ALWAYS AND FOREVER WILL FEEL THAT VERY SAME THING THAT YOU ARE FEELING RIGHT NOW... I DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT TO CALL IT, BUT BELIEVE ME, IT WON'T MAKE YOU HAPPY"


TAMA..... HINDI NGA AKO NAGING MASAYA... AYOKO NA RING ISIPIN ANG MGA TAONG HINDI NAMAN AKO KAYANG INTINDIHIN

I WANT A HAPPY LIFE.... AYOKO NG ISIPIN KAYO...... AYOKO NG MAGING SENSITIVE.... KASI MAS LALONG NAGING WEAK ANG PAGKATAO KO, KAYA SIGURO GANITO AKO LAGI.


I WOULD LIKE TO SAY SORRY TO ALL PEOPLE NA NA HURT KO BEFORE:
1. PASCASIO JOSHUA MARIA HO VICARIO III
2. LOI VANESSA VENDIOLA
3. DANILO CORTEZ, JR.
4. DONALD DWIGHT OMEGA
5. SOME POLITICAL SCIENCE OFFICERS


I WANT TO THANK THE FOLLOWING WHO HELP ME IN REALIZING THOSE THINGS AT NAINTINDIHAN AKO:
1. PAUL MARIE ALLANIGUE
2. KRISTINE CONCEPCION
3. JOANALYN BARAYUGA
4. GERALDINE AGUINALDO
5. RHIANE BORNALES
AT MARAMI PANG IBA...

TAMA NA... I WANT PEACEFUL HEART AND MIND....... I DON'T WANT NA MAGALIT MULI SA LAHAT NG TAONG KAIBIGAN KO..
SORRY.... SORRY.... SORRY....

AKO….. at ang mga Hinanakit Ko Ngayon…..

march 9-11

Paulit-ulit........................

di ka tinatablan??? siguro mababasag ang batong ipupukol sa iyo sa pagiging insensitibo mo!!!
huwag mo akong gawing tanga sa harap ng ibang tao kasi nagmumukha akong.......................
hindi ko alam kong matutuwa ako sa mga nangyayari ngayon sa iyo... siguro... karma na yan.....
kung feel mo na galit ako sa iyo... at nagbubulag-bulagan ka.... insensitibo ka ngang talaga....
salamat sa iyo..... naging totoo ako sa sarili ko ngayon..... tingnan natin... mahaba ang taon......


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There are so many people na hindi ako maintindihan!!! Marami ang naguguluhan kung sino ba talaga ako? Mga kaibigan, ako po si AFS, nabuhay sa moralidad, konserbatismo at sa pagiging positibo. Marami akong attitudes na negative kesa sa positive:

1. mapagtanim ako ng galit to the point na di kita kakausapin depende sa akin. Kaya kong di ka kausapin ng 1 linggo, buwan o kahit isang taon, kapag nagalit ako sa inyo
a. itanong ninyo kay Loi Vanessa – 4 months kong di kinausap yan
b. itanong kay Joma (di naman niya alam) - one year
c. my high schoool mates - halos 3 years na
d. raiza - for one week

2. I cannot brawl you with my fist, but I can trounce you by my words!!!

3. Back stabber ako sa mga taong nag ba backstab sa akin.

4. plastic ako sa lahat ng plastic sa akin

5. at higit sa lahat perfectionist ako kaya mahirap akong maging presidente ninyo

6. Namimili ako ng kaibigan, kapag mabait ka, positibo ka…. Kaibigan kita Pero sa totoo lang kaya kong makisama dahil mabait ako sa lahat ng taong mabait sa akin.

Makikilala ba ako kung di ako mabait (pumunta kayo ng Mindoro!).


The worst decision I made in my life…… when I chose Political Science as my course… it is not easy… pero ngayon, unti unti ko ng makilala ang Political Science, I am not ignorant to law na!!!
now, talagang iba na ako ngayon...... I am totally healed nung February 2006


"Thank You is the easiest word to say... but it is hard for all insensitive people"


TEKA NGA, BAKIT KO BA IPINAGSISIKSIKAN ANG SARILI KO SA MGA TAONG HINDI ALAM MAGPAHALAGA NG KAIBIGAN. BAKIT KO KAILANGANG SUPORTAHAN ANG MGA TAONG PLASTIK NAMAN SA AKIN, BAKIT KO KAILANGANG IPILIT ANG SARILI KO NA SUPORTAHAN KA EH WALA KA NAMANG PAKIALAM SA AKIN???

TANDAAN MO....... Masaya ako kapag natutulungan ko kayo.... kahit na magmukha akong katawa tawa sa mata ng ibang tao....

I am happy kasi I helped people na ma achieve ang success nila. To the point na I will jumped off to the window of the IAS bldg. para mapakita kong masaya ako. I am happy kapag nakikita kong nakatulong ako sa lahat ng tao until maabot ang kanilang success.

Moral support?...?!!! kaya kong ibigay yan…. THANK YOU sa sarili ko. Ok, ito na!!!


MASAMA ANG LOOB KO……………….



Example ba???...............
Okay!!!


A. ELEKSYON
Last election, naging masaya ako… kasi natulungan ko ang mga kaklase ko sa kanilang pangangampanya…. To the extent na kahit walang pasok eh nasa school ako just to support them especially the meeting de avance, maging COMELEC member at umuwi ng 12 a.m. at mamigay ng flyers kahit na dapat eh non partisan ako!!! Ganyan lang talaga akong magmahal ng kaibigan… pinagdasal ko nga na “LORD, KAHIT ANONG KAPALIT TATANGGAPIN KO MANALO LANG ANG APAT NA ITO!!!” 2 days sumakit na husto ang mata ko, siguro yun na ang sign pero natalo ang DALAWA, sana 4 days na lang sumakit ang mata ko para exact…. 4 lahat,,, di bah?!??!

Pero…….. natapos ang eleksyon…………. Naging masaya ba ako? Hindi


1. natalo ang pinakaresponsableng nilalang sa POLSCI ng 15 boto lamang
2. natalo ang isa kong kaklase sa FEUCSO laban sa isang artista
3. na zero sa first year PolSci ang pinakaresponsableng nilalang
4. di rin binoto ng isang officer ang pinakaresponsableng nilalang
5. nakulangan ang effort ko na ikampanya sila
6. ang lahat ng pinaghirapan ko eh nawala kasi...............
7. basta….. THANK YOU Andrew….. wala lang!!!!
thanks sa sa apat ng nilalang na tinulungan ko....


kay danilo cortez, joma vicario, paul allanigue at czar rimando
kahit na nagkaroon ng mis understanding noon.... wala sa akin yun, siguro it's my way of reconciling to all people na nasaktan ko............

AYOKO magpakaipokrito at magpapansin para lamang sa ganito kaliit na bagay, pero sana na appreciate ninyo ang ginagawa ko… Napakahirap mag desisyon…. kung sino ang iboboto ko AT SUSUPORTAHAN….

NONPARTISAN- kasi COMELEC Member ako

PARTISAN- kung pwede nga lang kasi isang Party lang ang sinusuportahan ko

BIPARTISAN- kasi mga kaklase ko eh nasa magkaibang party

Ang hirap……………. Ang hirap ding ikampanya kayo, pero sana lang……………… sensitibo akong tao… lahat gagawin ko masuportahan lang kayo!!!!


SA LAHAT NG MGA WALANG KWENTANG NILALANG na BINASTOS ANG MGA NAKAPOST NA CAMPAIGN MATERIALS

Naglilibot ako sa lahat ng classrooms na dinikitan ko ng posters at campaign materials… napakasakit sa akin na makita ko na nilagyan ng ekis ang pangalan ni Danilo, takpan at punitin ang pangalan ni CZAR…. ANG SAKIT SA AKIN


Tama na…. walang pinagkaiba ang dalawang parties…. Tama na ang siraan…. Mahiya naman kayo… masakit kasi parang AKO ANG INYONG BINABASTOS!!!!!


Sana sa lahat ng nanalo, maging mabuting ehemplo kayo at sana tulungan ninyo ang IAS. Tama na ang away politika…. Diyos ko.... school pa lang ito, Tigilan na ang patutsadahan ng SAMASA at SANDIGAN kasi… alam ninyo ba? walang mangyayari.... tigilan ang batuhan ng putik at parinigan tungkol sa mga brilyante at sa mga di nagawa ng IAS noon... kasi KUNG HINDI RIN TUMULONG ANG MGA ESTUDYANTE AT DI RIN TUMULONG ANG DALAWANG PARTIDO POLITIKAL.... TALAGANG WALA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


ANDUN ANKO NUNG MITING, Naging Battle of the Brainless , sorry to say, ang labanan sa FEUCSO MITING DE EVANCE…… ni hindi kayo nagbigay ng inyong GPOA, nagbatuhan lang kayo ng putik…. Hello Polsci kayo, student kayo… alam ninyo na yan!!!!


Nasermonan ko si Danilo kanina (March 6, 2006) pasensya na.. it’s about election at sa miting de avance…. at ang hinanakit ko sa eleksyon na yan.

Isa pang nakakasama ng loob, nang ma zero ang isang tumakbong PolSci sa IAS sa isang section sa PolSci mismo….

At take note kapwa officer pa ang di bumoto!!!! Ayokong panghimasukan ang pagboto ninyo pero sana lang…. naisip ninyo rin na OFFICER yan, natulungan kayo niyan sa PolSci…. Ano ba ang galit ninyo sa kanya???? Di ba…. Na brain wash, white wash o ano…. O gusto ninyo lang???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Isa pa…….. Nakakainis ang pakialaman ang ideya ko… ito ay nangyari nung eleksyon… na bakit kailangan niya na ipamukha sa akin na istupido ako na para pulaan ang kabilang partido!!! Hindi ako tanga, prinoprotektahan ko lang sila, kasi kaklase natin sila….. iboboto ko sila kasi, kaklase ko at alam ko ang kakayanan nila at kaya kong makipagpatayan sa iyo!!!! Don’t insist ang alam mo…. Kasi iba ang pananaw mo sa pananaw ko…… at sa tingin ko.... mas matino ako sa iyo!!!


Tama na nga…………….. Salamat kay Czar!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Salamat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kasi naunawaan niya ako


B. UNLIMITXT

I am very thankful to all people na nagtyatyagang itext ako…
Thank you sa mga text messages ninyo…

na pag minsan ay talagang applicable sa akin at nakaka relieve ng galit kong damdamin, lungkot at inis… kahit na forwarded I deeply (hanggang Marianas Trench) appreciate it. Kahit na group send style… ok lang kasi nakakaalala pa rin kayo….

Thanks to Dwight!!! i am thankful sa kanya....


It is possible….. GLOBE…. Anything is possible not just simple amazing!!! Tuwang tuwa ako kasi, nakasama ako sa cycle of text addict!!! Text ng quotes, forward ng quotes, text ng messages, reply, etc….


Pero may time na, out of order at di na maganda…. Specially ung mga text brigade tungkol sa death…. Gusto ninyo na talaga ako mamatay kaya sa akin ninyo fino forward yan!!!! Kilala ninyo na kung sino kayo….. lately lang about dun sa nasaniban………… may mga text messages na basta na lang sine send…. Na hindi ninyo alam ay pwedeng makasakit….


Like what happened last election…. Nagamit ang cell phone… paninira man, pagtangkilik man, pang iinsulto man basta lahat!!!!! Pero, sa totoo lang nawalan na ang essence nito…. at siyempre NAGAMIT ang cell phone ko.


Nawawalan na ng mensahe ang unlimited text…… makapag send lang ng message OK na kahit nasasaktan mo na katext mo?

Pwede namang magtext di ba!!!!! Kaya lang…… wala sa PUSO, walang EFFORT, walang TIMING, makapagsend lang!!!! Nawawala ang meaning ng friendship, nagtetext ka because para maki uso, nagtetext ka para makilala…. Kaya nga naiinis ako… ng dahil sa text… they took advantage on it….


Kahit na nga Globe ako, smart pa rin ako sa pagpili ng messages at pagminsan pa’y gumagawa na lang ako ng sarili… para mag ke effort man lang…. Nasisira ang friendship dahil dito…
katulad last election.........


ACTIVE KA KAHAPON KASI MAY HINIHINGI KANG PABOR, IN ACTIVE KA NGAYON KASI NAGAWA NA ANG PABOR!!!! Di ka na kailangan eh, di ba?,,,… ano pa silbi!!!!
Anong maganda sa unlimited text??? ………………….. wala – hanggat walang nakakaalam ng tunay na kahulugan nito, walang maganda….

To all P1, sana alam ninyo to…..
na sana kahit mag end ang unlimited text, eh ang friendship natin ay di rin mag end……
I will entertain texts…. Reply lang….. hangga’t hindi ko nakikita ang tunay na text messages…. baka GAMITIN na naman ako para magawa ang mga gusto ninyo…….
Salamat sa mga text messages ninyo, specially to all people na unexpected… sabi nga, “expect the unexpected”……


C. POLITICAL SCIENCE ELECTION

Before, sabi ko di na ko tatakbo kasi walang nagyayari, sa 15 officers….. 5 ang active… ayoko magbuhat ng sariling bangko pero isasama ko sarili ko….
Dahil naghirap din ako dyan….. Last February, nag decide ako na tatakbo…. Just to help Pol Sci….. Pero ngayon, parang di pa sigurado….


Basta if there are 13 people who will convince me….

Tatakbo ako…… By the way, hindi ko alam kung tatakbo ako sa Pol Sci… sabi ko noon, tatakbo ako and kung manalo, target ko presidency… pero ngayon set aside ko muna ang ambisyong yan… mas may deserving sa akin at yan ay si CZAR ALEXIS RIMANDO…. Alam niya yan…… marami akong plano for the society…. Marami siyang plano…..

Kaya lang,,, sinasabi ko na perfectionist ako… galit ako sa di gumagawa at pasaway… sisigawan kita….!!!! Nung high school ko yan ginawa…. Imagine 4 offices ang hawak ko… lahat President… naging Mayor pa for 1 week!!!!! Kaya…. Dadalhin ko ang natutunan kong leadership skills mula sa simbahan at high school.

Sa totoo lang, kapag tumatakbo ako…. Hindi ko binoboto sarili ko….. bakit??
Ayaw kong maging katuwa tuwa. Mas mabuti pa na ma zero ako…. Para malaman ko na talagang walang gustong magtiwala sa akin… kesa sa one vote na ako lang ang may tiwala sa sarili ko…. At least magiging masaya pa ako….. na ayaw ninyo talaga sa akin…. Mas thankful ako…..

Salamat nga pala… sa lahat ng nagpapalakas sa akin ng loob at nagconvince sa akin na tumakbo:
1. Professor Dolores Reyes
2. Joanalyn Barayuga
3. Paul Marie Allanigue
4. Czar Alexis Rimando
5. Loi Vanessa Vendiola
6. Geraldine Aguinaldo
7. Princess Jeremiah Santos
8. Ate Kim Mayuga
9. Kristine Concepcion
10. Danilo Corez, Jr.
11. Herbert Ikan
12. Ma. Theresa Vargas
13. Marianne Inofinada
salamat.... kompleto na!!!!!!!!

Siguro kahit vice lang, ok na, hehehheeh……

13 people ang kailangang magconvince sa akin eh, hehehehe….

Salamat sa mga taong naging totoo………………….

1. cathlyn de guzman
2. Dwight omega
3. ryan solis
4. rhiane bornales
5. raiza dela cruz at marami pang iba…

salamat sa mga kaibigan ko!!!!
Salamat sa PSO231….
Salamat sa mga sincere
Salamat sa mga text ninyo
Salamat at NA FOFORWARD an ninyo ako


GINAWA KO ITO… HINDI PARA MAGPAPANSIN…maging O.A., MAGPARAMDAM… MAGING KJ…... GINAWA KO ITO DAHIL……. PARA MAPANSIN NINYO NA MALI PALA AKO AT TAMA SI ANDREW…………….

Salamat sa inyong lahat……………… March 6, 2006…… nangyari lahat ito………..
please leave your comments..........

SINO... SINO... SINO... ANG TUNAY

Friends are the most important gift from God... I am lucky coz I have friends....
Ang kaibigan parang PETAL din pala ng flower... napakagandang tingnan nito kapag bago. napakarami ng petals. Pero habang tumatagal, eh.... nalalanta din. nalalagas din... Parang kaibigan din, unti-unting nawawala, nagbabago at natutuyo.

....pero pasalamat ako, nadagdagan na ang kaibigan ko....

ngayong college na ako, kayo ang tinuturing kong kaibigan....

paki silip na lang kung... sino...sino...sino...ang totoo

(araw araw nagbabago ang pwesto nyan)

princess jeremiah santos, donald dwight omega, paul marie allanigue, ronn ryan solis, pascasio joshua maria vicario, rommel concepcion, czar alexis rimando, joanalyn barayuga, marie kristin concepcion, loi vanessa duque- vendiola, joshua dizon, marianne inofinada, rhiane bornales, geraldine aguinaldo, geomelyn sarah sacramento, herbert ikan, aura nadine taloza, raiza madelle delacruz, cathlyn de guzman, catherine mae gungon, danilo cortez jr., mary michelle corpuz, racquel balao-as, ana angela alimpuyo, guianne paulo zarate, michelle barrantes, jonathan cosme, christian dave dalisay, gizelle lacerona, bjorn micu, rainier ruiz at vonn friedrich talucod
JOAN, PAUL, KRISTIN, PRINCESS AT VHAN......... (IBA.......)

(in order ba yan?)

OO IN ORDER YAN

ngayon..............................................................................

tanungin ninyo rin sarili ninyo...........

naging TOTOO ba ako kay andrew?



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ang pagkakaibigan ay hindi dahil sa meron ka kundi sa kung ano ka...
ang pagkakaibigan ay hindi dahil sa pareho kayo kundi sa kung paano kayo naging magkakaiba...
ang pagkakaibigan ay walang hinihintay na kapalit kundi kung paan mo ito papalitan ng kagalakan...
ang pagkakaibigan ay kusang pinararamdam at hindi sapilitan lang...
ang pagkakaibigan ay handang buksan ang sarili sa isa't isa at totoo sa lahat ng bagay...
at ang pagkakaibigan ay hindi pana-panahon lang
lam mo kung bakit...?
dahil ang pagkakaibigan ay pang habang panahon at hindi panandalian lamang..."
- a.f.s.


sav this message until 04/06/7
hanapin ko yan!

promise!
heheh,
wheeewww!



from junjun:

"lahat ng bagay may hangganan, lahat may katapusan pero ang matatag na samahan walang limutankahit na dumating sa puntong kailangan ng magpaalam lagi mong tatandaan, ang astig na barkadahan... forever walang iwanan...."

Saturday, July 29, 2006

THE PRESIDENTS
(FEU, IAS and the POLSCI)
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(Don’t conclude, read first the whole article)
These past few days I’ve experienced different problems and difficulties – studies (not quite) but in my emotions.
Most of my classmates noticed the changes. I am more serious now, always mad and I find my self with many negative traits. I am still fine naman…I am happy sa ginagawa ko. I need to be braver. Masyado na akong natatalo eh. Kailangang maunahan ang emotions ko ng tapang. Kaya ko ng lumaban at tingnan ka na may angas!!!
Siguro, today I am stretching and going out to the comfort zone of mine. (peace ed ba ito?) But instead of going to the growth level, I am into non-growth level. (peace ed nga!!). I am practicing to be more boastful, swanky, brag, blowing my own horn and cheering my own praise. And, kaya ko pala… Nagiging plastic na rin pala ako…na matagal ko na ring pina-practice sa mga taong plastic din sa akin. Sorry to all, this is the only way I set my emotion gratis.
Now, thinking and caring PSO241 is a waste. You know what – I am tired of caring some “ungrateful” people. I am tired of loving some “insensitive” individuals. I am tired of thinking some of them. In short, I am tired of caring people who on no account knew that they are being neither cared nor loved!
I admit I changed a lot. Lalo na after the June 28 event – which is the election. I’d encountered many things. I was extremely disappointed at that point time in my life. I am saddened about the result of the election for the most part my standing. I did not imagine that I will land only 7th as a matter of fact I am an incumbent (not delinquent) officer of the Political Science Society. I did not talk to people particularly Czar; to some extent I got annoyed at him. Until now, all messages I received last June 28 are all saved in my phone memory.
June 30 – I am somehow delighted that I become the society’s vice president (I want to be the president – that is the truth!!!). Kahit na gusto ko talaga ang maging president, dahil I want to be followed and not to follow anyone else. Yes, yan ang style ko - Pero siguro I think why God did not give that post to me because He knows that Czar is more responsible than am. But still, in my own view – I am more skilled than him.
I admit, decisions in the Political Science Society came either from me or from Czar (we both expert on that business because we were both incumbent). More often than not the decisions came from me… but of course, all credits were given to the president (that’s the real thing even in national politics!!!). I am still thankful, because Czar trusted me and gave that very significant position to me. He is my buddy when it comes to the administration and supervision of the Political Science Society. His success is my success even the credits are all for him. That is the reality. Sorry Mr. Czar Alexis Rimando!!!
July 11 – Another dreadful day of my life. It is the induction. Yes, I am mad at that time from the start of the mass until the end of the activity. I saw different faces. From real to the plastic one!!! I am mad that day because of uneasiness and seeing “some” people who pretends that they didn’t knew that I am mad. For God’s sake!!!
To add it up, the battle between me and Pascasio become too obvious at that day. I don’t know if he is still mad at me but for sure I am still mad at him. I approached the stage with pride. I confidently walked with matching rising of eye-brow. Suddenly I felt upset.
The person, president, who I helped last election did not even congratulated me nor shake my hand when I proceeded at the podium (di ba rommell?). When I go back to my seat, I saw him staring at me. And I gazed at him with matching rising of, not only one but, two eye brows!

Lighter side of the issue…..

I want to thank my best buddy, Paul Marie who is always very supportive. He texted me that night telling “do I have problem?” Thank you for being there always.
Sorry also to Czar. Czar gave me advised that night but I will consider it as one of the unsolicited thing and advises to be ignored and totally junked. Place your foot on my slippers and you will find out how difficult is. If you want to insist that advice to me better not. My pride is higher than my head! I thank FEU President Lydia Echauz (our conservative and kill joy president) because she congratulated me (close?) and shook my hand (relasyon?). Thank you… Buti pa siya.. may pakamay-kamay pa. (di ba rommell?)
I am now with Danilo and Marella, we always have a coffee break. We sometimes eat at the “PORK CHOP Station”. Danilo taught me how to have strong personality. He taught me to face the reality. Marella gave scholarly and sometimes stupid advice. hahaha
I will not think people na lang, I will live on my own way na lang. Wherever I am happy, doon ako…
Joan, Van and Kristin… don’t think na, I isolate myself from you. It is not my intention. I have reasons. The truth is, I am always alone. I want to think more serious. I want to meditate. I want to reflect. I want to be free and find my purpose in this world. I have problems – different problems. Sa totoo lang wala akong kasama. Sorry because I am not your thesis mate. Sorry I am not always part of your group. Don’t think na pinalitan ko kayo. You are the very first people na nakilala kong totoo.
After the July 11 event….My apology…
I am sorry to the presidents of IAS. I texted Pascasio last night (07-20). I apologized to him. And I don’t know the answer. Peace na tayo… I am tired of playing this never-ending tale. All happenings last Feb. 13, 2005, Feb. 2, 2006, March 9 and July 11 is now a myth!!! Tigilan na ito. Suko na ako. Hindi ko kaya na gawin kang senstibo kahit one second lang. Hindi ako Diyos.... Sanayan na lang iyan....
Peace na tayo…Sana lang…
Czar, sorry to all of my BAD attitudes na pinakikita ko sa iyo.!!! Sa mga meetings, hindi na ako nagsasalita kasi for sure mag-aaway lang tayo… e ayaw kong mangyari yun… BEST FRIEND ka ng BEST FRIEND ko… Close Friend ka ng enemy ng BEST FRIEND mo na si Rommell, hehehe…
Basta, decision mo… decision ko….
Mr. President… I am here always… If they did not follow you… don’t worry…ako ang kalaban nila.. hehehe… matakot na kayo noh!!!
Thank you for reading again….
By the way, pakibasa ng book ko… tnx!!!
Entitled “LABING PITO: Eis Es La Vida!”
I am going to continue the things I had started… for a change… Love ko pa rin naman ang P1 kaya lang… limited na lang para din a ko masaktan pa….
Thank you… thank you…
JOMA…. Another best friend of mine… (SELF PROCLAMATION)
Hmmm… pero parang “Best friend is worst enemy”, joke lang po….noon iyon..pero ngayon…slight na lang!!! Hahahaha…!!!Joke lang…
STOP.
Thank you to:
Rommell (sasama lang ako sa team building kung kasama ka – for sure OP ako dun)
Paul
Joan
Princess
Ryan
Cathlyn
Danilo
Marella
Czar

Friday, July 14, 2006

kapag tumibok ang puso... corny

Hey! Good day po….

Well, I promised you na I will stop unenthusiastic articles here in my blog. Sige na nga…. Hmmm… well, today I am very happy for the reason that….. ano nga ba???

It is normal to an individual to express his/her feelings to other people. Especially to the person you loved. For the very first time in my life, nagawa ko siya. I expressed my feeling to her yesterday. Oh… kita ninyo…. Stop na ako sa pagiging torpe!!!

I met her last vacation, because I always go to FEU. Natutuwa ako everytime na nakikita ko siya. Then, I asked her number from my classmate/best friend.

Then naisipan ko siyang itext ulit…. Yesterday, I texted her whole day long. I was amazed. She was nice. We had very good conversation, talking anything and I cannot understand myself why I changed the topic to relationship. I told her… do you have “someone?” and she replied, “as in BF?”. I said yes… then I told to myself…. “very high school!!! Slam book ba ito?” Hahaha… then she replied…. “None”… then I replied again, “Why? You’re beautiful!!!”, then, she replied… “La Lang po…” suddenly, I made a joke (ehemm…) and she didn’t understand it… I replied… Siguro, you are very choosy and siguro you are searching for the right one talaga? Sige, I will try”. Marami pa kaming pinag-usapan… then, that conversation was the start of getting to know each other. I asked about her birthday and age… We talked about anything. I told to her, “I am single since birth and I am not into relationship and I told I am mabait talaga… I laughed when I received her reply because she said that… “

Aba

… promotion ba ito ng sarili”… then I started fall on her. At 6 pm , I do the move. I told her that, I have a crush on her… I waited for her reply… but she never replied. Then I texted her again, “sige na nga baguhin natin ang topic”, After 30 minutes of waiting, she replied. Her reply was “Sensya na kasi may tumawag kaya hindi ako naka-reply, would that be a compliment? Thank you po..”. I felt very much happy at that point in time. I replied her, I hope you woudn’t change. That’s it…

She is the kind of woman I wanted to. Mabait po siya. Taga-FEU. Pero di ko siya kaklase. I am thankful kasi I met her. Super duper bait. I saw her profile on friendster, we have the same characters, we have in common traits and wala lang… and Globe din siya…. Hahahaha!!!!! Background check talaga muna before I go into it. I am not like other people na one week pa lang eh, nagustuhan na ung girl. I am not that kind of person. This is the very first time na naging open ako. I don’t want to give her name. Basta, makakasama ko siya lagi sa seminars and meetings lalo na sa team building.

Sabi niya did aw siya maganda… sabi ko, “maganda ka!!! At kailanman ay di ako nagsinungaling!!! Hehehe, I hope na maging close tayo. At sa nangyari last day, sana di ka magbago. Baka mag-iwasan kasi eh ayoko ng ganun… I expressed lang this feeling because I don’t want na sa iba mo pa malaman at ayoko na isipin mo na ginagamit kita because I have agenda pala. Don’t think na ganun… I am sincere and I am happy na nakilala kita.

Gusto ninyo malaman… Hmmmm… she is Ms. Ganda….. Heheheheh…..

Till next time…

Saturday, June 10, 2006

Thank You

MESSAGE OF HAPPINESS:

True friendship hears what is not
Explained; for friendship doesn’t
Work neither in the mouth nor in the hand,
But in the heart.

These past few months, I’d encountered countless emotional tribulations. I think I only missed you… That’s it… More than two months of longing to see you siguro. I am glad today because I discover the true meaning of care. Real care of course. To add, read my book na lang and you will find out the meaning of different things and how I care for others and for special people.

I want to share with you two things….

Ok…. The first is THANK YOU….

I found the importance and true meaning of friendship. There is one person who I want to thank. Why? After long years we’ve been together. I finally heard him say this word – Thank You! Wow… That is the word I am waiting for. I am happy; he now appreciates my sacrifices and all the things I am doing. For the first time he thanked me… I’ve done many favors but for the first time I heard he say “Thank You”. I am happy if somebody appreciates me. A simple word – thank you – is the most important word to me.


Another one… is CARE…

I am happy in helping people. Just text me, I will be there. I am just a text away. Even if you are in the southernmost part of this country and I am in the northernmost – I will swim thousand miles, I will walk uncontrollably and I will run as fast as I could just to get there. Last June 8, there is a person who I considered the best. He asked me a simple favor, and then I did it. At that time he was angry and I knew the reason. And I am the only one who helped him. And he thanked me. I texted him many times to ease his sadness. On the next morning I was delighted to hear that there is a silent message came from him that he told to other person. And the message passed through my ears. I asked that person: She said, He is not mad, he is sad. He is not angry at you instead he said to me that YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE WHO CARES FOR HIM. Wow, how nice to hear such thing that came from a much unexpected individual. I can’t believe it!!! Friend nga kita!!! I considered him as the best among my friends (read my book and my blog) but he never knew it and I don’t want to tell it to him because I am afraid to the things he is going to say.
Do you want to know who are they? The people behind the words CARE and THANK YOU? The word “THANKS” came from your adored leader and the word “CARE” came from your much-loved spokesperson! Before I end this, I would like to thank the people behind my happiness - The 4th year P1. I didn’t enjoy my vacation! In fact, I am in school (May 23-present) because of the enrolment and collecting the organization fee. From April 2-may 23 I was in my house. Wala lang… text-text lang!!!


I want to share these dates with you and the involved people:

February 13, 2005 = Anna, Gizelle, Princess, Dwight, Geraldine, Ryan, Cathlyn, Raiza, Dave, Jun Jun and Joma

February 03, 2006 = I attended the mass of Fr. Jerry Orbos.

February 06, 2006 = Joma, Dwight & Prof. Ignacio

February 09, 2006 = Paul

February 13, 2006 = Anna, Gizelle, Princess, Sarah, Nadine, Jun Jun, Geraldine, Joan and Paul

March 02, 2006 = Paul, Joma, Czar, Danilo and Prof. Reyes

March 31, 2006 = Paul, Dwight, Princess, Ryan, Cathlyn, Rommell, Jennifer, Loi, Danilo, Joshua, Herbert and Czar

April 06, 2006 = (text messages) Paul, Dwight, Czar, Joma, Jennifer, Princess, Ryan, Cathlyn, Herbert, Danilo, JunJun, Marianne, Kristin, Rommell and Mark Ysla

April 08, 2006 = (text messages) Dwight and Princess

April 27, 2006 = (text messages) Paul, Dwight, Czar, Joma, Joan, Jennifer, Princess, Ryan, Cathlyn, Raiza, Jujun, Marianne, Rommell and Mark Ysla

May 06, 2006 = Rommell, Princess and Mark Ysla

May 14, 2006 = (text messages) Paul, Jennifer, Dwight, Rommell, Ryan, Cathlyn, Rhia and Princess

May 23, 2006 = Joan, Czar, Rommell and Paul

June 08, 2006 = Czar, Joma and Paul

June 09, 2006 = Czar, Joan, Paul and Jennifer

April 06, 2007 = no one knows!!!

Sabi nga ni Dwight….. I am everybody’s calendar!!!



“Eavesdrop to the words I by no means pronounced. Be aware of about the things I on no account told. I need the sensitivity of yours and not your mentality because the most excellent things in this earth are unobserved, pent-up and ignored.”
– afs040607