Cracking My Code

Break my cipher.
Try to discover the reality behind the fact!!!!!
And you gave me the raison d'être to do this sinister article.
I am exceptionally pleased for the reason that I met extraordinarily nice and real (?) both in LRC (HS) and in the P1.
LET'S START WITH LRCians
From 1st year to 4th year, I was with them. I am the friendliest among all.
I may not have the unsurpassed among all but somehow I found someone who is “vaguely” real and truthful.
Jethro, JP, Jimrick, Immanuel, Joy, Tin, Jack, Donna, Izel, Yesa, Cherish, Van, Kelyn, Che, Aiza, Maffi and Suzette period
Kung katotohanan din lang naman, ako na ang pinakatotoo.
Among the 17 (magalit na kayo), only 6 are real – real people in me. Names? You want me to reveal those?
Sure.
JOY, TIN, JACK, DONNA, YESA, CHE period
Napaka- memorable ng high school years ko.
Why?
Naramdaman ko kasi ang salitang RESPECT.
Respect, coz PRESIDENT nila ako (4 different organizations – 4th year alone)
Respect, kasi BUNSO nila ako.
At syempre SELF-RESPECT na rin
At that time, hindi pa ganon “IN” ang cellular phones.
Kaya, we contacted physically, verbally and in reality not by “hi-tech communiqué”.
That’s why… I am very delighted.
Problems with them? Many.
Sometimes I am the cause and sometimes I am not. Mahirap akong kalabanin…
Lahat kaaway ko…. and if you have the audacity to do it…
Don’t dare….because hindi ninyo ako kaya!!
Sabi ko nga,
“I cannot brawl you with my fist but I can fracas you by my words”.
Mabait ako sa mabait… But if….. if….. Plastik ako… sa mga taong plastic sa akin…
Siguro, when I was in high school… wala namang plastic… siguro iilan lamang….
Names?
Nope…
to protect na lang their etiquette as a plastic and fake individuals.
KILALA MO NA KUNG SINO KA!!!
Well, let us go to P1 – WHO CHANGED A LOT OF THINGS IN ME.
P1… I love P1.
Mas love ko kesa sa LRCians.
That is the truth!!!
P1 is the reason, why I have sleepless nights.
Yah.. correct!! We are 30 in class, I love all of the 30’s but siguro iilan lang ang pinakitaan ko ng much AFFECTION, LOVE at CARE.
Names? Sure!
JOAN, PRINCESS, KRISTINE, LOI, PAUL, DWIGHT, RYAN, CAHTLYN, RAIZA, JOMA, CZAR, DANILO, RHIANE, HERBERT, GHIE, ROMMEL, RACQUEL and MARIANNE.
And after 7 years…. Nakatagpo ako ng BEST FRIENDS…. Opo 7 YEARS… tatlo sila….
JOAN, PRINCESS and PAUL…. You read it correctly… YES, he is one…
Hindi ko lamang alam kung TOTOO din ang pakikitungo ng tatlong ito sa akin….. YOU KNOW!!!!!
Parang, I lean on a huge rock in Australia and on the Walls of Berlin and China….
now...........
In contrary SA LRCIANS, dito naman nawala ang RESPECT.
Both, respect of others and my self-respect na rin.
Pero, I loved the people who removed that STUPID RESPECT inside of me?
Why? Iba kasi ang love na ibinigay sa akin ng iilan.
FEBRUARY and MARCH 2006…. I changed!!!
Studies, pakikitungo, pagkakaibigan at lahat-lahat na…
P1 is the reason:
1. I change to GLOBE… para lagi ko kayong kausap.
2. I have friendster BLOG…. Sa totoo lamang,
KAYO LAMANG ANG LAMAN NG BLOG KO…..
But…. What I am trying to point is that or what I am trying to be adamant this very day is that…
YOU POISOINED ME….. P1 KILLED ME….
Because of you, nagbago ako…..
Siguro, we know na “in” ngayon ang phones!
I am happy because of this unlimited text.
But in the end, I suffered and I got hurt to all people I communicated with.
Today, I find some friends in text messaging some of them were DWIGHT, ROMMELL, JOMA, RYAN, CATHLYN at PAUL, but personally, hindi kami masyadong nag-uusap.
TAKOT AKO SA KANILA…. Yes, takot….. Pero, kaklase ko yan….
We are chatting and we are in high spirits and blissful in texting but in the real world… ano pa ang aasahan?… …
SINO BA AKO? HINDI BIRO IYANG MGA IYAN…..
POLITICAL SCIENCE YANG MGA YAN….
Mahirap na!!!!
Pero in spite of sa mga worries ko, naging totoo ako….
Let’s back again to P1….
Naging totoo ako sa lahat, pero ang katotohanan sa likod ng totoong ako ay hindi ninyo nararamdaman dahil peke ang ilan.
Sabi ko, pakinggan ninyo ang di ko sinasabi…. Hahaha… paano ninyo ako mapapakinggan kung BINGI naman kayo?
Tuwang-tuwa naman ako, na ang p1 na nagtanggal ng salitang RESPECT sa akin ay mas minahal ko pa sa mga taong nagbigay nito – Ang LRCians at ang FAMILY ko.
Sa p1, sensitive ako, pero sa family ko hindi…. BATO ako.
Sa p1 naging totoo ako, sa iba hindi…. Pinahahalagahan ko ang p1 pero sa iba at sa bahay ay hindi.
Ang masakit, pinahahalagahan ko ang mga taong hindi naman ako pinahahalagahan na kayang ibigay naman ng pamilya ko.
Sabi nga ni Dumbledore sa HARRY POTTER and the Chamber of Secret:
“IT IS OUR ABILITIES THAT SHOW WHAT WE TRULY ARE. IT IS OUR CHOICE”
Bahala na kayong mag-connect.
For me, there is connection to the things that are happening to me right now.
Bakasyon…………
Ibinuhos ko ang lahat ng oras ko at panahon sa inyo ngayong BAKASYON… and you know it…
TANGA lamang ang hindi makakunawa at makakaalam nito!!!!
Bigay ng quotes, messages, inspirational text kasi yan lamang ang paraan ko para mag” keep in touch” sa inyo ngayong vacation period.
Pero... may kulang.....
EVEN myself ay napapabayaan ko na…. to the point na nagkakaroon na ako ng anxiety at kung anu-anong worries sa buhay sa kakaisip sa mga taong hindi naman ako iniisip.
HOW WEIRD my LIFE IS?
Nasasaktan ako… hindi ko kasalanan, hindi ninyo kasalanan.
Sinong may kasalanan…
WALA….
From now on…
Di na ako magiging vocal…
This would be the last post na gagawin ko sa aking blog na unenthusiastic, apathetic, negative and pessimistic ….
MASAYA AKO SA GINAGAWA KO NGAYON.
Ang mali lang sa akin, ay nagmahal ako ng sobra…. Why I am always problematic? Nakakainis na…
STOP IT!!!
I think, it is time to accept this God-damn reality of life.. na I can’t be so nice and friendly to such people like you guys because I tend to hurt myself even if I don’t hurt myself physically… but I feel the pains.
Mas mabuti pang nag-iisa… I am happy kaysa sa marami ... Na ang pakiramdam ko naman ay nag-iisa ako di ba?
STOP THINKING PEOPLE WHO DON’T EVEN CARE TO APPRECIATE ALL THINGS.
Ayoko ng makipagkaibigan sa di ko nakikita…. NAGIGING BULAG AKO….
Kung di ninyo ako ituring na totoo, bahala kayo… Pero ako, naging totoo ako sa inyo…
It is easy for me to remove your name to my list. If you want. Pero thank you… because there are few people na nakakaunawa pa sa akin…..
Marami po kayo… If you think na kasama ka….
Then, it is up to you….
REAL AKO…. TOTOO AKONG HUMARAP SA INYO..
I AM REAL EVEN BEFORE. AND I AM REAL IN TAKING THIS CHALLENGE!!!
Kung saan ako masaya… dun ako…
TO LEAVE YOU IS TO LOVE YOU……… (wow.. tama ba)
Last year ko na, siguro NAMAN…..
unti-unti ko nang MAKIKILALA ang mga totoo at fake!!!
Thank you for reading this… Ako pa po ito….
Text messaging? Stop..... See yah soon.....